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table of contents 1.0

Thisis my old blog (formerly zerosum)


started Feb 2000 
heads UP !
2nd week april 2000
A Story of The Return
first thing after coming back from NY/Bard week with Seli 
April 2000
dialoge Winterfeld : my Recovery
finally ! enough with gdf pussyfooting : got MY pictures back ! 
february 2000
it hit me : the BEDLAM like a ton of rocks from Heaven
the Time of Troubles - no updating has been done as of presstime 15 May 2000. All work cut off @ the time because of conflict. Looks like i'll pick it up ASA i get my own place in TWO (ah, panic, nix panicus!) yes, two weeks. 

last week in march 2000
march 2000
medicine in March
pre-site manufacture
january 2000 
St Paddy's week
i CAN do it without drinkin' ! 
The Covenant with La Deesse
an end to all fighting 
the first two weeks after
zero sum updates
pictures
19 hours


an album (splatbook?) of pics I took with some of my friends right up and leading to my 19+ hour train to meet with Sel in March 2000. Our auspicious, most excellent first meeting :) 

ashley
bart
friend for life, one last pichu 
fast mark
allo herr funovits, ja ! 
kifah draws souls
major art
last known location ::: wHeRe ?!? 
A Story of Us


pictures taken March 10-15, 2000, during my visit to Sel at school in NY 

glitch-FREE


the answer to faltering ISPs. unless, of course, those DOS cracks are @ it again. Du, enough with the DOS already! (2:57PM 16May2000) 

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recovered sel pictures
from sarpic.zip archives replicated @ least 3x with no detail loss or pixelization due to compression. Also, please see note for the previous folder. Thanks ! 
Sel picture book online
technical: Due to the wishy/washy encoding of the sponsor page's gnomes, getting to this page may prove to be of a slight difficulty on some browsers. Keep @ it! The pictures are SO worth it :) 
working title sarrah pictures
orange crush


pictures that sel sent me 

archived Sel pics


recovered 16 May 2000, after Sel's twenny-second birthday :)! 

Center's computers
and the love of my life, Sel-baby catching up on email <3:) 
dance studio
sel doing homework 
Faerie 2000
Happy New Champagne, er Year ! 
hallway
artwall collage by Kim (jones?smith?) 
hardware shopping (huh?:)
sel, aisha, maren in red hook 
hey Red !
spring 1998 - one of my favorite pics ((love that hair, mon)) 
lightbox sel
flash didn't read right in the studio, had to do mega* leveling via photoshop :) 
Naughty!
scandalous, fabuloso pic from some party: check out those leather pants, eh? Awesome attitude, du :) 
Nightingale (in black and white)
another version of the inthewindow.jpg 
out dark bigger version
relatively hi-rez version, more detail shown. I LOVE that smile :) 
realswing
whew! thanks Dad, for the pic (smallest version) 
sad
during the illness 
2000 New Year's in Brooklyn
bachannal
watch out ! 
bergen ivy
first ever pic sel sent ::: "you're a WHITE girl !" ... "is that wrong?!?". A pleasant surprise :) (Oct 1999) 
Blur : the Dancer
photoshopped version of (the other new dress) pic 
calfskin suede
pretty new jacket, thanks Mom ! 
grey dress
ala modelo : i give it 9/10 :) <3 it! 
new dress
caught in stop-action 
Sel profile
the (notoriously:) award-winning Seli photo 
soft and quiet
a long day 
another Hoffman pic
b/w pic of seli outside studio
:) photogenic sel 
emmeleia
smaller version 
inner dialogue
lightstripe
the smaller version 
lightstripe
BIG version 
more studio pics
outside the kline com
twas a funny pic, with stuff on the roof of kline ((( grin ))) 
pooka:) weaving
quod vide emmeleia and so_AWEsome ! pics 
returning the key
quiet(!?)faced seli-bear :) 
sel and sid pic
thanks Jenny :) 
sel outside the art studio
sel outside the manor house
the girl with the sun in her eyes 
sel's so_AWEsome smile
snowdrop
(BIG version) :) 
snowdrop gathering
Sunsmile
first pic with both of us in it : can you see where I am ? 
the Center balcony
ala Romeo and Juliet ? (REALLY big pic) 
Tuesday
thanks to momma Irene for taking the pic! 
bigwhite


the transplanted tropical that I am, I've this unbelievable fascination with (of all things) SNOW. 

a room with a view
courtesy of Sel (Winter 1999-2000) 
big white 01 | an exercise in perspective
big white 02 | picture perfect background : my own little snowglobe
bigwhite | i love snow !!! | wait'll I learn how2 wideboard (0:
icy urban wasteland
smile album
cowboy Brun
Hsien | artwork by Jong
me and the Koreans
Jong and Mike 
the ethiopian dinner
the three amigos
sourire


the one and last reunion with Bart Sadkowski and Justyna Zydel 

art critics
happy buddha faces
the author in the center, with justyna and bart 
justyna
main page for sourire
me and bart
reunion of dear friends
< was it in february? seems like a lifetime ago > 
acid rorschach
experiments with 688PPC film and a smidgen of hydrochlor-acid on the same pic turned out to be a visual exercise in necessary catharsis. 
outlook Anime 2000 |
(current) backlogged project 
sleep dep
good haired, eye-bagged @ work (old pic) taken late last quarter 1999 by Justyna 
the Bengal Khan
I was referred to Toa Jojo (of Milios, Chicago), the guy who does Rodman's hair. Took FIVE hours! But 1 bleach job, 4 colors and 3 shampoos later - I have one of the KEWlest dye-jobs ever. Thank you, Jo :) 
written work


generally 99-2000 pieces, with a few REALLY old ones thrown in for good measure :) 

Oblivion | Elysium
a really bad dream
Magovitch and Tam are vampires. Or are they ? 
Aftermath : a hacker's valentine
an excerpt from the Millennial devotion
unedited and recited from memory of twilight 
Aneurysm
Do you know Tyler Durden ?
Fight Club inspired piece 
for a moment there I totally forgot Tyler's whole "controlled demolition" thing ...
fight Club inspired writing 
Govern The Unaligned
an older devotion from the Elders 
I am Maitreya.
This is MY game. 
latest DCD news from ryan Caduceus
ni hau ma ming zhu :)
latest news re: our chopsocky Aussie pal 
on Hallowed ground
inspired from the Varese Sarabande score for the original movie The Crow 
Pogawedka z wiedzma
korrespondenz mit der Anaya 
suffering
surefire sniffles zapper stew
heheh, for the ever buggin stuffy noze 
The Incredibly Strange Mutant Creatures Who Rule the Universe of Alienated Japanese Zombie Computer Nerds
The Primogen Welcome
for House Decadence 
There Are Eight Rules
lifted from the FOX official Fight Club site 
scratch disk


unedited pieces 

Winter haiku
zero sum haiku imported from sloane
a review of Leon
an untitled Game Of You
soon to be shuffled into the Book 
disintegrating
into Dust Turning
into This Wish
Nothing
nihilism.... mmm, yummy (sarkazm) 
SERAFENE awaken
rully rully good scratch disk't 
The Child Stolen
the scratch disk | jungle | poetry by siddharta somar
the scratch disk | poetry by siddharta somar
The Warrior
untitled piece
The Book of Dreams
entre Aqua Liber


Thou art Water given Form 

aquamarine
How do you drown a blind man who can breathe water? 
Sahvoi
And did I dream right ? As it has already transpired. I'm still reeling from its wonder (: QV: Thanksgiving 1999 
undine
They had bottled light to serve them in the darkness of the evening at sea 
an Act of Closing
only the weak are ever scared 
Calamity within Deluge
“Pick a card”, the hag said. “Any card”, and so I did. 
Embrace without Escape
a missive of utmost urgency has been handed to the maiden 
Hasten This Longing
Encircling me to the last, my own disembodiment. Yet strangely welcome: I speak of Home. 
Nowhere is Forever
an apology to the everDearest heart 
Our Restoration to Grace
our strongest bastion our renewed enlightenment our consoling providence Our Restoration to Grace 
The Book of Dreams
the Edge of Her Wound
I knew the chosen path, and kept quiet vigil over you. 
The Night of Unending Fire
Many are lost to Heaven’s tortured cry: in truth, neither good, nor evil win Only the War remains 
The Book of Reach for The Sun
Beltane: and a few thoughts on the matter
Come on in and stay home, there are books and tea and a garden. Here in my heart. 
Emmeleia
As all stories go, one has to begin somewhere. 
I need to Remember
Our love at the end of the day is all that matters. Nothing stands in our way. No fear, not turmoil, nor bad dreams. Nothing. 
if it's two old biddies harrassing me - it MUST be Friday
cream cheese on bagel = performance art? 
into Summer
The procession started. The first day of the rest of our lives had begun. 
makura no hiruma
the darkness at noon 
Mein Wächter von Geheimnissen
the keeper of my secrets 
my heart on a sleeve
long hand-written letter ... to be continued! 
Night Story (response to Seli)
There is only you in my mind. There is only you in my heart. 
Reach for The Sun
The Heart of a Commoner, Conversations betwixt the auteur Siddharta and la fée avec des yeux de vert, Seli 
The Accordance
The Truth finds Light 
THE ANGEL HAS SPOKEN.
le dernier mot la plus courte la lune dans le premier des yeux du hibou 
the last few important things
take me through the illness, my Angel 
The Book of The Game Of You
my left eye
Leave me not alone with her hunger 
puddle play
The Book of The Game Of You
riddles borne of Dreamtime and the Dreaming 
the glistening pool
the oldest Game Of You
still currently unguessed ! 
The Secret
"You are my One, Without you I am None" 
The Book Unopened
Aion
catch me in the middle of what I have to say 
an artist's supper
confession
Fade Into You
convergence: Sel's song of wonder, and my piece carefully worded. It all come together :) 
Harano, song of Malahshahor
Our Elders have Spoken, “Neglect is unforgivable.” 
Pasanin
written in the tongue of the Tagalogs 
Read For Us The Names From The Book Of The Dead
Every single time is the end for us. 
rite of passage
the Book Unopened
inna mi kokoro, ang pinakaloob ng puso ko 
the sum of six and twenty
funeral 
sid knows how to write, hmmmm
the reading room in zero sum
press release page 
voce : zero sum
spiced with a few jpgs - currently under REconstruction ASA summer comes in 
p r i m a r y - electronica &c. by s i d l e y
sid's music page
two words : downtown apartment (:
ZERO SUM | 2000 | release 17.02 ver 1.0
 
 

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